Tuesday, February 2, 2010
back to work
well i'm back to work...and it's not easy being away from my little one. i thought that after 13 weeks i would be more than ready to come back. i knew that i would miss stone like crazy, but i wasn't prepared for the guilt that comes with going back to work. i've decided that it's kind of a "damned if you do damned if you don't" situation. i feel guilty for not spending every day with stone, but if i didn't come back to work i would feel guilty for not bringing in some money to help get into the new house and to help out with bills. i feel so good knowing that stone is with family every day and that i don't have to drop him at a day care, and i also feel good knowing that i have every evening and every weekend with him. i know that some of these feelings will pass, and i know that this is all just part of the choices that i've made...but i need to complain about it anyways...because it feels like my heart has been ripped in half. i'll get it put back together tho...stone will be fine, and im sure this will make him a very adaptable child..and it will make him close to other family members. i just need to toughen up...